A few years back I participated in the Seven Valley's Writing Project, a high intensive writing program for teachers, and it's left an indelible mark on me as a teacher and as a writer. I wish there were more opportunities to participate in things like it and maybe something I do in 2017 is make more time for things like it. One of the things that we picked up was the concept of a found poem. A found poem is taking a line or two from something you've read and turning it into a poem. That year I did a found poem with my students while doing the play Fences. You all know my love of the play, so this was an important assignment. I'm telling you this for a reason.
Today is February 18th. It's my son's 4th birthday. At 2:20 on February 18, 2013, Cooper John Zeleznik was plucked into the world much the same as MacBeth. A few years later the line "I don't want him to be like me. I want him to move as far away from my life as he can get" was striking a serious chord with me and I wrote this poem about my son:
The day he was born was cold,
But he was warm like the spring.
Cool gray eyes in a tiny pink body
That shivered in the winter air.
Forty hid around the corner from me,
Yet this little barrel maker was fresh and new.
Well worn and weary,
I looked down at him
Feeling old, tired,
Filled with paths not taken.
Smoldering in my chest.
But that is not the path for him.
I wonder if my father thought the same thing,
Forty years earlier,
Looking down at my cherubic face
On a snowy eve in Astoria, Queens.
My path was different than his,
But not as much as I'd like to think.
And that makes me sad.
As I look down at my little barrel maker
I say, "I don't want you to be like me.
I want you to move
As far away from my life as you can get."
Then I wonder if saying it out loud is enough.
With a heavy sigh,
I stroke the soft cheek with an ashy knuckle
And whisper "I love you" to a fuzzy ear.
Happy birthday Cooper, Daddy loves you. (That's not part of the poem.)